So im back! After my last depressing post i decided to give it a break... i didnt want my blog to become depressing and negative :) Although the issue is that i feel like writing only when im very upset or feeling emotional about something .... in the happier fun moments im too busy enjoying it and living the moment to bother to write! From that perspective maybe me being away 2 mths is a good sign :)
This post is dedicated to my mom! My mom and I have had a very strange relationship over the years... i think we are very different people... we have very different thoughts and perspectives on life... i cant agree with her on just about anything - yet i cant be without her!
During the pre-teen, teen and post teen years i kept her at an arms distance... we were going through a difficult patch in our lives and i was always around but somehow emotionally we never shared our feelings... we were just together, finding solutions,,, dealing with the practicalities of things! My mom really held her own and managed to provide me with a great education (with help from m brother ofcourse) due to which i think i am where i am today... But there were other areas where i think she should have supervised more and instead she let me loose which now i regret.
After marraige i have become closer to her in any ways... there are still many things that i would never discuss with her because being my mom she will be biased in her understanding of some of the things i go through... nevertheless what has brought us much closer and strengthened our bond is my son...
My mom gave up her job just so that i could carry on with my career and ambitions... and shes been the most amazing back up mom i could ever imagine leaving my son with... in fact in a lot of ways she manages him sooo much better than i do... the attention she gives him, the way she cares for him, the way she has taught him sooo much already... i cant thank her enough for it... It makes my life so much easier... and although i complain a lot that i dont get time for things etc the truth is that i do manage to do a lot anyway thanks to my mom... like the pedicure i got yesterday while she was babysitting but she hasnt managed to get hers yet which im still feeling guilty about... :(
In fact i think when i am at my mums house i get so spoilt that it actually takes me a while to adjust when i go back home and dont have the same support... Last week i was staying at my mums coz my husband was travelling... and my son was very ill... she stayed up the whole night taking turns with me, taking charge of things etc So when i actually went home and had to master giving him horrible medicines on my own without the extra hand and cleaning up the vomit etc i was like I MISS MY MOM!!!!!
anyway now im rambling... i dont know if i will show this to my mom but i love her like crazy and im soooooooo lucky to have her in my life... i honestly dont know what i would do without her... so heres to all moms! Thank you Allah for blessing us with them...
p.s Mom is going for eid holidays for 10 days to my brother! Its going to be a long 10 days!!!
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